Have you given up? Is probably what someone would’ve asked us today if not for the enthusiasm of the few people at Roki’s car show that cared enough to bring their cars and lend a hand. It’s easy to get bogged down as to why we have not been able to pull off the fundraising in the last few months. I have to stand back and look at it from elsewhere. Is someone trying to tell us something? Have people given up on helping Roki? Has Roki given up? Have we given up without knowing it? Is there an underlying current that people sense that I can not see or feel. I find it hard to believe that Roki has given up. I know we haven’t although it seems attractive on many days we simply could not bring ourselves to give up on a little person who suffers so unfairly every day and still keeps trying his best, how could you? How selfish I would feel if I did that. Have people around us given up? Do they think that they’ve all helped Roki enough? Perhaps for some this may be true but then we look at people there today, we could tell they felt for us that we didn’t get enough cars, we could tell as it was amazing how many people tried to say positive things and the few people who were there really emptied their pockets for Roki.
Why then we wondered is it so hard? Has the universe got a message for us? If it’s telling us that we should think about giving up then we won’t listen. Perhaps we are not strong enough yet and this hardship will make us stronger.
I felt bad Roki that I didn’t say the words that carry your story today. I just wanted to be a mum today and let you know I love you. I didn’t feel like talking on the microphone. I didn’t feel like picking up the phone to hear about the message from the universe. I didn’t feel like listening to that tiny voice saying, you can’t keep it up, you need to give in.
Messages from the universe perhaps so, but giving up on my boy, no never.
I want the few people who were there today to know that just having you there is enough. Enough to know not to give up.